Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Joined deviantArt & printer craze! Dear Diary,
Currently Listening To: nothing
Current Mood: sleepy Recently, I had been doing some artworks at work when no tasks were given to me. As for me, it's part of practicing my designing skills and to learn more on multimedia. Ms Diana and Ms Serene saw a few of my works and both persuaded me to do more designs in order to develop my hidden talent. Which is why I have created an account at www.deviantart.com. You can view my artworks and photography on this link http://ladyblackmetal.deviantart.com/, which also can be found on the "Introduction" section of my blog. Well, developing a talent is a start. It may open up more opportunities for me in the future. According to Ms Diana, it can also make money. To start, I have to learn more and keep improving. =D Today, I was assigned a task to design a lucky draw poster for the MS event on 1st July. To tell you the truth, I was stuck. Corporate or creativity? I don't know. All I know was that I could use my own creativity. Ya, but it's too broad for me. Had to narrow down. Came up with small designs of A4 size and get them printed out. First piece looked dull and shit-liked. 'Shit-like' means the colours resembles the colour of your shit too close! Hahaha The second one had some dyfunctional colours. No colour harmony. And the third one looks too creative and not corporate-like. It was hard... My dateline is today! Okay... Never mind. I can come up something to suit the requirements. While I was printing the third piece, the printer number 08 had a paper jam. Bloody! Kheng Soon, the system admin, inspecting it. Later joined by printer engineer, Mr Yap and another technician. So crazy! I sent the same one to the other printer number 09, and it too got paper jam! Bloody epidemic!! Kheng Soon already started shaking his head mouthing 'Chalat' repeatedly. Hahahaha Got the print-out on printer 09, and packed to leave the office. When passing by printer 08, it was already OK AND MY INITIAL PRINTOUT WAS THERE ON THE OUTPUT PAPER TRAY! Gosh! Luckily, I sent out something related to work rather than for personal use. Hehe I started to think about him... again. Had some unresolved issues with him. Don't know whether to tell him or not. I know that he would not like me back. To find a time to meet him, quite hard to do that. I don't know whether I am prepared to me him and tell straight to him about my feelings. A person told me to tell straight to him and wait for his response. Another one told me to forget about him and move on. I'm too confused right now. When thinking about him, I do not think highly of myself. Part of me says 'I want him' and another says ' I can't have him'. Just my guts feelings. And everytime I look at him, I feel like I want to break down. I don't know whether he can accept me in his life. I'm very open-minded, sometimes too open, not typical girly girl you'll see and the list goes on. To take that step forward, it's not easy. To know the result is another thing. In order to do this, I cannot let my guard down. He should not catch me off guard. And even if he is reading this right now, I want you to understand me. I wish I could light up your life by accepting me into your life. If you do, it'll be good for me. If not, it's another walkthrough to the same journey I had passed before. Just for once, I don't want a guy to step over my head and taking me as an advantage. It's unfair! What more of one-sided relationships? *Sigh* *PeAcE oUt* \m/ With Love, Lady Ratna |